Okay, I'll take your bait.

Since about a thousand of the people that I watch are doing it, I figured I would jump on the bandwagon, even though no one really pays attention to my page because I don't ever upload any content...but I made a Formspring for myself and for all of my characters that virtually none of you will recognize because I don't upload any book content here, hahahah.

ME - [link]

Cam's - [link]

Nero's - [link]

Hizume's - [link]

Prescott's - [link]

Blaine's - [link]

GO TO TOWN; ASK AS MANY QUESTION AS YOU WANT! ASK QUESTIONS UNTIL YOU ARE BLUE IN THE FACE! ASK SO MANY QUESTIONS, YOU PUKE, I DON'T KNOW.

It is almost eerie how well Ed knows me and my psyche and all of my problems, how close we've gotten through letters. He was able to pinpoint, I mean, my exact issues. Things I couldn't have worded better.

"You ought to be more forgiving of yourself, because the plain fact remains, if you are unable to do so, others see this, and because you trod over yourself, so will others... I love you dearly, as family, as a true friend, and as a truly noble soul, worthy of love and praise. You're giving and you go to lengths to put others at ease; you are not picky or petty, nor are you cruel. You, however, have a problem with how you see yourself, unworthy, untalented, ugly, weak. You have allowed people to turn all your most radiant qualities against you, and for their own purpose, you sideline yourself, and so other people find it easy to do so without thinking about it. You see yourself as unimportant, so others follow suit... Remember 3 truths - 1) You are worth it. 2) No one can make you feel, but you. 3) You are beautiful."

I love him. I miss him. Ugh.

I have been in a huge burnt-out funk lately, ignoring phone calls and emails and letters, just completely isolating myself. I was so tired of trying so hard to not let anyone down, ever, and in the process, letting EVERYONE down, including myself. Most OFTEN myself. So I shut everyone out, and I ignored letters from my brother. Hell, to be perfectly honest, I was too much of a coward to even OPEN any of them. I knew they would be frantic and worried at my very abrupt and very total silence.

But I have felt better lately, so I wrote him a letter explaining things out and I have sent him two more letters since then, but he sent me one last letter before he got any of my letters, and I opened it. I feel so terrible.

He says he was so worried that he was having heart palpitations and scary thoughts. He tried to communicate in a humorous way the thoughts he was having. He said he thought that 1) he had said or done something that had caused me to dislike him, 2) I'd been replaced by a Liz-shaped doppleganger unable to articulate in any way, 3) I've fallen deathly ill, 4) his darling niece has matured into a mischievous halfling and become such a handful that I cannot spare a moment without watchful eyes on her, 5) I've been kidnapped by an army of undead and I must spend every waking moment entertaining them to keep them from eating my brains, 6) I'm chained up in some sicko's basement somewhere.



I hope he gets one of my letters soon. I really feel bad, but I needed to take that time for just myself, to just have some inner reflection. STILL, I probably should have at least sent him some kind of a card or something to let him know that I was in the land of the living.

But I'm not going to stress over it, because, as I've been telling myself these past weeks, IT IS WHAT IT IS.

I'm thinking about pitching my book, but I want to pitch it as a graphic novel because I think the story would be better suited to that medium.

So I've been looking for any and all aspiring graphic novel artists, people who are just looking for some exposure, looking to get their names out there. I want to have some artists read my book and see if it would be something they feel confident about. I want someone who really, truly believes that they can convert the book to a graphic novel, and who is 100 percent behind the story. Someone who really thinks that if it is pitched, it will be accepted, maybe not right away, but eventually. I need an artist who sees real potential in the story! I don't care about making money or hoarding profits. The artist is going to be in for an undertaking. The artist can have 95% of the profits if that's what they want. I just want a little bit, for the plot of my brainchild. I do have a family to support.

I know that there aren't many people who visit my page, but I'm asking anyone who DOES see this entry, and feels interested, or knows someone who might be interested, to please contact me or, at least, spread the word.

I've never done anything like this before, so I wasn't sure how to word this best, but Hell, I tried.

I know that everyone has a busy life, with work and family, and school, but hopefully there is someone out there who will feel confident in my book and who will be willing and excited to dedicate some of their free time to the project.

Some very basic information: mostly male main characters, varying ages. A crime-action-drama kind of genre, with an underlying family theme.

I have a difficult time summing the plot up briefly, but I can sum it up in a few paragraphs if anyone contacts me interested, and just wants to be sure that they enjoy the plot before they actually read the book.

This is a busy and uneventful life. I like it. Hah.